Writing this post is hard for me. It’s hard for me because I can almost see some people rolling their eyes. Why do I say this? Because I have seen it often in the past, even from some dear Christian friends. As a matter of fact, I’ve witnessed it so often that I find myself rarely revealing this to anyone.
However, a couple of weeks ago I found myself telling my new friend and accountability partner about this, and then the next day I received a message from a Facebook friend who out of the blue confirmed the same thing I had just shared with my friend. And – wouldn’t you know it – I was reading through some old journal entries a couple days later and came across a couple from back in November of 1998 which again reminded me of the clarity of what I have heard in the past from my Lord.
I shared with you previously when Gary’s sister Linda had organized a prayer day for Jeffrey (Ya Just Never Know What God’s Gonna Do Next, Oh, No – Where Did My Faith Go?). However what I don’t believe I’ve shared with you is how I believe that the Lord has told me that He is going to heal Jeffrey some day.
It all started a couple years before that November entry when I was laying in bed crying out to God, asking Him if He was ever going to heal Jeffrey. It was then that I first heard Him answer loud and clear in my head. As a matter of fact it was so loud that I turned around to see if Gary had heard it! (He was still asleep.)
The words I heard: IT’S NOT TIME YET.
Inside I knew exactly what that meant. To me it was confirmation that Jeffrey was to be healed, but just not yet. And the Lord indeed has confirmed that same thing to me throughout the years many times: by random people in the church, numerous dreams, by a woman at a shopping mall, a couple sitting on a park bench, and a man running out of a restaurant to approach us as we were walking past. (I’ll share more of the details in later posts.)
Anyway, back in November 1998 the confirmations started when I received a birthday card from a dear friend with a bookmark inside quoting Psalm 37:4: “Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.” This had been one of my favorite verses for quite sometime, and it has also been a verse the Lord brings back into my mind often.
But then during that same time period I was finishing up a great book entitled “Dancing in the Arms of God” by Connie Neal, and certain paragraphs leaped out at me so strongly that truly I felt like I was going to pass out.
- Don’t give up where my heart truly aspires to go;
- Never let myself stay discouraged, and dare to believe my heartfelt desires and dreams are valid and worthwhile;
- Remember that I don’t have to be anyone other than who He is making me to be because He takes great delight in shining His perfect light through imperfect people;
- God is faithful to His promises, refining me as I wait for His timing;
- Listen to the gentle whisperings of His Spirit telling me to believe what He’s told me of my dreams;
- God is the greatest of authors, and to finish His unique story in each of us will allow us to go through numerous challenges, transforming us as we go along on the path set before us.
However it didn’t stop there. That night I had difficulty sleeping, and when I awoke the next morning, the intenseness of the previous day was still there! I came across an old newsletter I had put aside on my desk. What leaped out at me?
- God keeps His promises;
- Even though He may frequently confirm His promises many believers still do not believe;
- We’re to trust in the Lord with all our hearts (Proverbs 3:5-6);
- When God reveals a promise to us we’re not to become discouraged if it doesn’t happen right away, but instead wait on His timing, turning the other cheek to well-meaning friends who try and dissuade us;
- Remember to consider it all joy through our trials as God is refining us (James 1:3-4);
- The Lord is to be our place of hope and trust.
As I finished the newsletter that day I closed my eyes and just prayed and praised my God and Father. Then 1 Corinthians 4:10 came to mind: Be a fool for Christ’s sake. In the Greek this means to appear senseless, heedless or absurd!
So here I am, my friends – standing on the promises of my God and Father, who is able to do far more than we can even think or imagine (Ephesians 3:20). So go ahead and roll your eyes if you must. As for me: Yes, Lord, I believe, help my unbelief (Mark 9:24)!